I got sicker. And sicker. And sicker. Until I couldn't take it anymore.
Saturday I called my doctor and begged for him to drain me. He did. I've felt WORLDS better since then, although I'm paranoid every day that it's going to come back. In fact, he said it would. And that this would last "weeks". It's been 3 days and I've been great, so I'm really really really hoping that maybe I'll just be lucky and it won't.
I finally got my official beta yesterday at 20 days past egg retrieval, or "20dpo" by natural cycle standards. The nurse called me and I almost fell off my chair - she said, "It was pretty high. Over 5,000." So they scheduled me for another bloodwork on Wednesday, and...... an ultrasound!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FINALLY!! I thought we'd have to wait a whole 'nother week. I am ECSTATIC. We will FINALLY get to find out whether we have a singleton or a twin pregnancy.
Between the early BFP, the super high beta and the fact that I've had all-day "morning" sickness for almost a week already, I'm really betting twins. In fact, I'm hoping twins. I will definitely be disappointed and sad if one of our little babies didn't "make it". I know that Doug and my mom are hoping for one, and believe me - I understand why. But, I can't help it. I've grown attached to two souls already, and to find out there's only one will honestly be a let down. Don't get me wrong! I'm not selfish! We've wanted a baby for 18 months - to find out we're pregnant and having a healthy baby will be a huge blessing. It's hard to explain. I'm sure other IVF mamas that put back 2 would understand.
Well, in less than 24 hours we will know for sure! Can't wait!!!! Today is going to be a LONG day! Even if we don't find out we're having twins tomorrow, we will still get to see our LONG awaited baby for the first time. Which is a miracle in itself. We will see the sac, and the yolk sac, and *maybe* although probably not, a flicker of a heartbeat. I am so excited I can't stand it! I'm still trying to rest today - I can't do too much for fear of the OHSS coming back. But I'm going to pick up a little bit, shower, do my nails, watch some movies, and just try to keep busy and keep my mind off of how much longer until the ultrasound. It's going to be hard! What I do get to do though - my 5 week pic and post!!
How far along? 5 weeks. <3
Total weight gain/loss: Well, I got back up to 119 because the OHSS returned. I think I'm down to like 116-117 again though.
Maternity clothes? Honestly, since I'm home and mostly on bedrest and NO one sees me - all I wear is PJs and tank tops.
Stretch marks? Not yet.
Sleep: I need a Tylenol PM to sleep every night, and I still somehow wake up about 4 or 5 times to pee. Crazy!
Best moment this week: Getting drained!!! It was INSTANT relief. And then finding out about the high beta and our early ultrasound!!!!
Have you told family and friends: Yep, everyone knows really except my Grandma. I've been so sick I haven't been able to get out to tell her. After the ultrasound tomorrow, Facebook will know, and I'm going to really try and get to my Grandma's this weekend.
Miss Anything? Feeling completely normal (still from OHSS), and not worrying that it's going to return at any time.
Food cravings: I've been wanting french fries with Ranch - which is weird. Here in Buffalo we eat blue cheese on our fries (and pizza, mmmm). Or I'll have honey mustard. But I had a dream that Cam and I went to McD's and got fries with Ranch and I've been wanting them ever since! Also - green beans. Doug made them the other night and I had some and OMG I was literally obsessing about them afterwards. I almost made him go out and get me another can lol. They were like the best thing I ever ate in my life at that moment.
Anything making you queasy or sick: The cravings haven't been as crazy as the aversions - pretty much all food/smells make me sick. Even seeing commercials of food. BLECH. Mostly eggs/hashbrowns (used to be my FAV), but the smell of our kitchen in general, the garbage, the fridge. Ugh. Oh, and Daddy quit smoking! Yay!
Have you started to show yet: My tummy has gone down CONSIDERABLY since the draining. I look more like a 5 week preggo now - bloated but not ridiculously.
Gender prediction: I'm still guessing there's a boy in there. I'm praying for boy/girl twins. Daddy's last week girl/girl prediction is now waning - he doesn't know what to think!
Labor Signs: No.
Belly Button in or out? Same.
Wedding rings on or off? Engagement ring - on, most of the time. I've been so sick and in my PJs and comfy that I don't wear it all the time.
Happy or Moody most of the time: Things got bad last week when I was really sick. But Saturday was great. Sunday was super moody. And yesterday was ecstatic, after our beta/ultrasound news.
Looking forward to: Tomorrow's ultrasound!!!!!!!!! I've been in that office 1,000,000 times and wished that the ultrasounds I was getting were THIS kind of ultrasound. I am so so happy and feel so lucky and blessed!
(Still a little bloated, but not as bad.)